I have always love being in the center of the pit (during concerts) to get the my body fully pumping with the music. Why bother going to concerts if you won’t be there to enjoy the music?
The relevance to my post? Nothing. Just to divert you somehow.
I just finished another literary piece on my way home. Another by Catherine Coulter (The Wizard’s Daughter), and another by John Maxwell (Leadership Skills). Both led me to different paces of my personality, attitude and character. The former gave me magical spells, I entered world of wizardry (modern age) and witches, and passion and love. The latter led me to steps of being a leader (in any way possible).
Both books inspired me once more. Then, out of the blue, I just happen to glance at myself in the window mirror (I was walking inside Rob Place), then I said to myself “oh, such a lovely lady….” hahaha. Overflowing confidence. Beat that.
Kidding aside, my eyes travel once again to my look, style and aura. Hmmm… I am pleased (just my personal opinion ok? allow me…allow me…), I always go with a particular style, I always wanted to look artistic, those who knew me very well, would happen to know that almost everyday, I wore something for my wrist. I love bangles, lace and ribbons. Especially, black ribbons just simply tied. It somehow serves as one of my “safety blanket”. That is why, I have lots and lots of ribbons! Haha. That thing tied on my hand, somehow symbolizes “the real me”, despite the uniform, professional look, it always reminds me not to forget who I really am. No matter how high the plane I am in (symbolically speaking) one look at it, I feel so confident but humble and not alone. It always protected my head from bloating and exploding. Hahahaha.
So, aside from the ribbons, I also love playing with accessories. Pearls, chains, which exudes sophistication and a rocker-girl at the same time. So imagine me, wearing our beautiful uniform, leather bag, with a blazer, jacket or a vest, black ribbon at hand, chains in place, black pearls at the whim and singing softly with my PSP (red earplugs for me) while holding a novel or a self-help book at one hand and coffee on the other hand, strutting my way along Ortigas Avenue or Pasig City Proper – Oh, lovely indeed. hahaha.
My friends told me once that, one reason why guys seemed to be just walking along my back and rarely approached me personally, was because I have this intimidating air around me? Do I? I do not think so. One also said that it is because of my eyeglasses. hahaha. That got me laughing? What can I do about that? I used to wear contact lenses, but due to my long hours in front of the computer, and air-conditioned office, I tend to overused my eye, which left me having a scratched cornea. So I vow never to wear contact lenses unless, I have to attend a formal event or something which involves high heels (because I am a sucker for snickers and flat shoes – Kickers!).
Another also said that I look way too smart (here is the catch though, I just look like one..I am a great pretender…Shhhh….wink). I tell you, do not be fooled. I also flirt, for I love doing so! What a confession! But, here is the BIG BUT, I flirt in a different kind of way, not the usual “batting of the eyelash” but, I usually flirt in the intelligent way. I normally get attracted to those who give off an intelligent-way of boasting around or goofing around. There is a huge difference between being a NERD and SMART. (where’s globe and sun?).
Physically, yes, I love to people watch, or in modern terms “checking out”. But, that attention only lasts for several seconds or minutes. But, the brain cells really can get my attention way too long. I could have been dreaming about that person (if memory permits it). Throw in your “know-it-all-goofy-side” and I think “I could like or love yah”. Hahaha.
Self-Confidence, for me, the way they handle their selves is a big MUST.
Now, I also remember, for this post is about “whatever” that comes to my mind, way back in college, I have been given the lucky break to be voted as the President of our university’s Psychological Society. I have one year term there, and I loved all of my experiences with the other students. It is a ground-breaking training for me, so having the chance to lead, also gave me the chance to mingle with lots of individuals, even those outside our college. I still laugh with this memory whenever it would pop up, a respected professor (whom I really looked up to, still up to the present) asked me dearly, and with care, one morning if I am a member of a sorority group. For I suppose she have seen me hanging around in their area several times, and not only she asked me once, but given another day, she asked me again. My answer is no, I only have friends. That concern for me was too much, I would be forever grateful for her, for I know that the university is lucky to have her – she had shown genuine concern for her students. (thank you so much)
Being artistic can give off different personalities others may perceive about me, it can actually allow others to think several sides of my persona.. but I do not mind. As long as my family is not affected, words cannot hurt me.
I just want others to know that they can be honest into asking me whatever it is they would want to know or clarify about me. Never judge a book by its cover is indeed true, never put labels, we are all free.
Honesty revealed, is honesty that defines.
So this write-up here, is mainly focused on nothing, really. Just several thoughts passing along at the breeze of the moment.
Hmmm… out of the blue. Whatever. Again.
See? I know I have that look. Giggles.